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Monday, August 30, 2010

Perfect lyrics

Falling a thousand feet per second, you still take me by surprise
I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes
Making every kind of silence, takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

Making every kind of silence, it takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong

I know that I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

When you're caught in a lie and you've got nothing to hide
When you've got nowhere to run and you've got nothing inside
It tears right through me, you thought that you knew me
You thought that you knew

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my, just myself
Just myself, myself, just myself

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying


First heard this song when I was with you. 
You said you like this song a lot.
And after listening to it, I understood.
I'm not perfect but I keep trying. 

fucked off the world at x 1:03 AM



Friday, May 14, 2010

"Never Say Never"

Some things we don't talk about
Rather do without
And just hold the smile
Falling in and out of love
Ashamed and proud of
Together all the while

You can never say never
While we don't know when
Time, time, time again
Younger now than we were before

Picture, you're the queen of everything
As far as the eye can see
Under your command
I will be your guardian
When all is crumbling
To steady your hand

You can never say never
While we don't know when
But time and time again
Younger now than we were before

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go
[x2]

We're pulling apart and coming together again and again
We're growing apart but we pull it together, pull it together, together again

Don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

fucked off the world at x 3:56 AM



Tuesday, December 01, 2009

Low Shoulder - Through The Trees Lyrics


All alone in an empty room
nothing left but the memories of when I had my best frIend
I don't know how we ended up here
I don't know but it's never been so clear
We made a mistake, dear.
And I see the broken glass in front of me
I see your shadow hangIng over me
and your face, I can see...

Through the trees
I wIll find you;
I wIll heal the ruins left inside you
cuz I'm stIll here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathIng now...
untIl I'm set free.
Go quiet through the trees

I remember how we used to talk
about the places we would go when we were off
and all that we were gonna find.
And I remember our seeds grow
and how you cried when you saw
the first leaves show.
The love was pouring from your eyes.

So can you see
the branches hanging over me?
Can you see
the love you left inside of me?
in my face
can you see?

Through the trees
I will find you;
I will heal the ruins left inside you.
Cuz I'm still here breathing now
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
until I'm set free.
Go quiet through the trees.

Cuz you're not coming back
And you're not coming back
No-oo.. No-oo.. No
You're not coming back...
You're not coming back...

Take my breath as your own
Take my eyes to guide you home

Cuz I'm still here breathing now...
I'ms till here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And I'm still here...

Cuz I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And I'm still here..

Cuz I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And I'm still here..

But you're not coming back.
And you're not coming back.
Cuz you're not coming back
until I'm set free
Go quiet through the trees.

fucked off the world at x 2:13 PM





Queen — Love Of My Life lyrics

Love of my life, you hurt me, 
You've broken my heart, and now you leave me. 

Love of my life can't you see, 
Bring it back bring it back, 
Don't take it away from me, 
Because you don't know what it means to me. 

Love of my life don't leave me, 
You've stolen my love now desert me, 

Love of my life can't you see, 
Bring it back bring it back, 
Don't take it away from me, 
Because you don't know what it means to me. 

You will remember when this is blown over, 
And everythings all by the way, 
When I grow older, 
I will be there at your side, 
To remind you how I still love you 
I still love you. 


Hurry back hurry back, 
Don't take it away from me, 
Because you don't know what it means to me. 

Love of my life, 
Love of my life.

fucked off the world at x 12:00 PM



Sunday, November 15, 2009

Love of my life, you hurt me, 
You've broken my heart, and now you leave me. 

Love of my life can't you see, 
Bring it back bring it back, 
Don't take it away from me, 
Because you don't know what it means to me. 

Love of my life don't leave me, 
You've stolen my love now desert me, 

Love of my life can't you see, 
Bring it back bring it back, 
Don't take it away from me, 
Because you don't know what it means to me. 

You will remember when this is blown over, 
And everythings all by the way, 
When I grow older, 
I will be there at your side, 
To remind you how I still love you 
I still love you. 

Hurry back hurry back, 
Don't take it away from me, 
Because you don't know what it means to me. 

Love of my life, 
Love of my life.

fucked off the world at x 6:57 PM



Saturday, November 14, 2009


Bad Romance Lyrics

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-Roma-ma-ah!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-Roma-ma-ah!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your ugly
I want your disease
I want your everything
As long as it’s free
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

I want your drama
The touch of your hand
I want you leather studded kiss in the scene
And I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you

I want a bad,your bad romance

I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-Roma-ma-ah!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

I want your horror
I want your design
‘Cause you’re a criminal
As long as your mine
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

I want your psycho
Your vertical stick
Want you in my room
When your baby is sick
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love
Love-love-love
I want your love

You know that I want you
And you know that I need you
I want a bad,your bad romance

I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
I want your loving
All your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-Roma-ma-ah!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-Roma-ma-ah!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

Walk walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy
Walk walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy
Walk walk fashion baby
Work it
Move that bitch crazy
Walk walk fashion baby
Work it
Imma Freak bitch baby

I want your love
And I want your revenge
I want your love
I don’t wanna be friends

(The Same But In French)

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

I want your loving
And I want your revenge
You and me could write a bad romance
I want your loving
and all your love is revenge
You and me could write a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Oh-oh-oh-oh-oooh!
Oh-oh-oooh-oh-oh!
Caught in a bad romance

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah!
Roma-Roma-ma-ah!
Ga-ga-ooh-la-la!
Want your bad romance

fucked off the world at x 3:50 PM




Don't ever give up
if you still want to try,
don't ever wipe your tears
if you still want to cry.
Don't ever settle for an answer
if you still want to know.
Don't ever say you don't love her
if you can't let her go.

fucked off the world at x 2:54 PM



Friday, November 13, 2009

The loneliest of days...

As things are drawing to a close, the loneliness creeps in again. Ever so silently, ever so stealthy. Till it hits with full force. Forcefully, unstoppable.

With this closing chapter of my life, things should be looking up, getting better yet I feel such a empty, ringingly hollow emptiness within me. Was it the events of the months past, where my dreams of the future were so totally torn down and made to dust. That the person whom I loved the most would forsake me? That I be mocked and ostracized by the people I called my friends? That I am being left behind in a different world of my peers?

Your abandonment hurt the most. At a time when I needed your encouragement and love, you thought me unworthy of you. Despite my true and honest intentions to you,  I could never match up to your expectations. What I ever wanted was a simple life together with you. Was it so frightful that it scared you away? I keep telling myself to let you go... but it's so hard.... Because, you really meant something to me whether you want to believe it or not. If I could tell the things that I wanted so much to say, I would have told you that I would never lie to you ever, I would love you with all my heart, I would be there for you and never make you wait, that you will always be first place. But things will not work out, I missed the opportunity to tell you that I loved you so much and missed you so dearly...

This road to recovery is so long that I sometimes wonder if I should just give up hope; that there would be a future for me where I could be happy... At the rate of time that has progressed, that temptation to yield easily into the night bears on greater. I have lost so much of what I was, I am. I sometimes don't know how to get on with my life. Follow the flow, my friends say. Yet where would the flow lead to? The once lofty ambitions I had, are now but wisps of smoke. The fear of not fulfilling my true potential haunts me still and yet it is this fear that hinders me from achieving the things that I needed to do. Why this fear? Why this fear of my fear?

My mind is weak and my courage is waning... yet. I had hoped to God that I be spared this torment more often than not. Is it that he does not hear me? Or that I am unworthy of salvation? Sometimes I wish that there was a sign. And that my angel would be there to hold me in her arms and tell me that everything will be alright.

The loneliest of days.

fucked off the world at x 3:15 PM



Thursday, November 12, 2009

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There�s always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it�s hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I�ll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You�re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There�s vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don�t make no difference
Escaping one last time
It�s easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You�re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You�re in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here 







I really wish that there is an angel for me out there, and that I may one day lie in her arms and find comfort...

fucked off the world at x 9:09 PM



Wednesday, November 11, 2009

my lifelong regret.

fucked off the world at x 11:45 PM



Monday, November 02, 2009

I dreamt of you last night.

Of your '5 months with Patric'
Of a a giant photo of you in his arms having a sweet dinner together.
Of videos of you shopping and exploring with him.
Of your true joy and happiness together with him.
Of your beautiful smile.

It must be that you are really happy for me to dream of you like that. so vividly, so real.

You are truly happy.

fucked off the world at x 11:42 PM



Sunday, November 01, 2009

maybe i didn't love you enough.
maybe i didn't care for you enough.
maybe i didn't show my support for you enough.
maybe i didn't listen to you enough.
maybe i didn't tell you that 'i love you' enough.

if only i didn't still love you.
if only i didn't still miss you.
if only i didn't still want you.

then i wouldn't be hurting so much.
then i wouldn't be so disappointed.
then i wouldn't be loving you always.

fucked off the world at x 4:59 PM



Monday, October 26, 2009

It's a heartache


Nothing but a heartache

Hits you when it's too late

Hits you when you're down



It's a fool's game

Nothing but a fools game

Standing in the cold rain

Feeling like a clown



It's a heartache

Nothing but a heartache

Love her till your arms break

Then she lets you down



It ain't right with love to share

When you find she doesn't care for you

It ain't wise to need someone

As much as I depended on you



It's a heartache

Nothing but a heartache

Hits you when it's too late

Hits you when you're down



It's a fool's game

Nothing but a fools game

Standing in the cold rain

Feeling like a clown



It ain't right with love to share

When you find she doesn't care for you

It ain't wise to need someone

As much as I depended on you



Oh, it's a heartache

Nothing but a heartache

Love her till your arms break

Then she lets you down



It's a fools game

Standing in the cold rain

Feeling like a clown

It's a heartache

Love her till your arms break

Then she lets you down

It's a fools game

Standing in the cold rain...
 
 
 

fucked off the world at x 12:13 PM



Thursday, October 22, 2009

things don't always end the way you want them, don't they? time and time again, i ask myself why this why that why so many things? that i decided to switch off for a while to calm down. and lo and behold, you ran off again. why do i still love you when you cannot be faithful? have i not shown my commitment time and time, you go off because of the past you cannot put down. this is not the life you want - to be with me. i accept that then. all the reasons you can give. i hope he makes you happy.

fucked off the world at x 11:52 AM



Tuesday, March 10, 2009

I love you.
I miss you.
I lost you.


I love you...still
I miss you...still
I lost you...still


K

fucked off the world at x 1:27 AM